It’s the mid of the night.
Again, … I’m left with no one but myself.
Everything that happened during the day starts to fade off, nevertheless some memories choose to sink in firmly and stir up the emotions that were sleeping at the back of my mind.
Emotions are multi-dimensional. We may feel sad AND happy at the same time.
Fear, anger, excitement, loneliness… it is hard to fathom which emotions will strike because they are part of natural human being.
The feeling of loneliness is what that is least desired and most feared, but sadly speaking, unavoidable. It will throw us in a sudden-blackish-hollowness.
But no matter how grave is the effect, I know that it’s not going to last long because joyousness will wash it away eventually, just like the tides that come after one another
How hard you work for it determines how much you want it .
It’s so heart-breaking to see the people that you’ve been so concerned about don’t give a damn about you .
Don’t cry to quit. Cry to continue.
Basic needs of humans: food. shelter. clothes. and HOPE
20 years have gone by in a glimpse… I’m now a grown up individual with independent thinking. The hurdles that I’ve overcome all this while have pushed me up to this level of maturity.
This is one of the biggest, if not the biggest decision I’ve made… 3 months more and I’ll be off to England. I know it’s nothing of a child’s play.
Whenever I tried to look back, the pictures of my family members, my friends and all the memories that I’ve moulded would fall into my teary eyes. My long departure from all these things is the matter that pinches my heart the most.
I know it’s a journey of my own, a journey that will bring me a step closer to my future, my dream and my ‘la vie’. If I want to fly high, I need to leave behind things that weigh me down.
’Keep hope!’ I told myself.